Mother's Day 2011

As I sit here typing this post on Mother's Day 2011; it is with a very broken heart and a very heavy heart. It is broken for many reasons..... I have a lot of personal loss in my life such as my two youngest children (Matthew and Laura) missing from my life since 1998. I could never put into type what that loss alone has done to me. There are so many kinds of losses though.....

There are women who want to be a mother yet can't for one reason or another and I think about how they must hurt on Mother's Day. I also think about mothers who have lost children to death or in a custody battle (such as my own case). I think of mothers who have miscarried and never had the chance to hold or know their child. I think of mothers whose children have been abducted and are missing; a pain and open wound like no other.

I also think of mothers who have lost their mothers to death and I know that time never heals the wound of losing a parent. There is a legacy... but the loss is just so tremendous. I think about all the mothers who have children fighting in the armed services who are far away from home and many of them in danger. I can't imagine the constant worry....

And of course... I think about all the millions of women who have been needlessly hysterectomized and are unable to know the joy of being a mother altogether or mothers like me who have children but wanted more and can't have more due to being hysterectomized. There are no words for such a needless loss... Mother's Day is certainly a happy day for many but it is also a sad day for many too.

For mothers who have children... treasure them and love them. Hold on to them and don't let go. For mothers who have lost children for whatever the reason; I'm sorrowful with you today as you no doubt remember your loss on Mother's Day especially. My heart aches with you.