I Woke Up a Different Person

I watched a 48 Hours Mystery this past weekend and it prompted me to do a lot of thinking about crime, suffering, justice, injustice, etc. The story, based on a true story, was a sad one as usual... There was a young couple out on a date taking pictures of a beautiful full moon when, out of nowhere, a young man appeared and shot them both several times and left them for dead. The young woman survived against all odds.

My boyfriend watched this story along with me and he continually commented about how the 'bastard' that shot them should be killed. He wanted the young man's family to have closure and the young woman who survived to receive closure/justice. He was so upset about how this young couple was attacked for no reason and lives turned upside down; people who were happy and trusting were now angry, sad and depressed.

I began thinking about how what happened to me via hysterectomy was even worse than what this young couple endured. People don't see it that way though. They don't see it that way because a doctor committed a crime against me; not just your everyday 'ordinary criminal'. And... this is important... What happened to me did not happen out in the woods or the side of the road but IN A HOSPITAL; a place where one should be able to reasonably expect help and/or healing.

I remember clearly the police officer I spoke with about what happened to me telling me that my case was 'CIVIL' because it happened in a hospital and it was a doctor who had me knocked out against my will and stole my organs. I have been the victim of rape twice in my life. I was in a bank robbery with a man holding a gun and a bomb. These were horrific crimes but they happened at the hands of someone I did not know or trust and they happened in places where one could reasonably expect a crime to take place. For this reason, I survived the rapes and hold-up much better than the unconsented hysterectomy and castration.

In my case, I had no reason to expect that a doctor would remove six of my healthy organs; especially without my consent. Talk about being horrified beyond words.... I still am. I don't know if I will ever be able to put down in type what this horrific crime against me by a trusted doctor has done to me. I need closure and justice just like the woman in the 48 Hours Mystery story needed closure and justice.

Society does not recognize hysterectomy and castration as a horrible injustice against women. Every minute of every day in hospitals across the U.S., women are being gutted and castrated for money. 90% of hysterectomies performed are medically unnecessary.  Women are too often 'forced' into this surgery by their trusted doctors. Many women, like myself, do not even consent and yet their life-sustaining organs are 'stolen' anyway. Sadly, women are left to find a way to cope in a situation where there is no cure or 'fix'. It's devastating......

I want to state a very bold fact about hysterectomy that most do not consider. Other than brain surgery, hysterectomy is the only surgery that can truly change who you are; who you have been your entire life. You can have a limb amputated but you are still the same person inside. You can be burned terribly and disfigured but you are still the same person inside. I could give countless examples here but my point is that hysterectomy removes not just a part of you; it removes YOU.

I woke up from surgery and immediately knew I was not the same person. It has been more than three years and I grow further away from that person more and more every day. If I could have one wish it would be to have my female (sex) organs back and to be the woman I was before hysterectomy altered my life forever.

Every organ in a woman's body; including the brain, heart, thyroid gland, etc. needs hormones to function properly. There are over 400 receptor sites in a woman's body that must have hormones tell them what to do and when to do it. When these hormones are taken via hysterectomy and castration; a woman's body is violently thrown into total chaos and havoc. Every organ is affected. The body is devastated.... Worst of all, there is no way to 'fix' it.

A woman's personality changes. Emotions are blunted. Life becomes dull. I feel like the walking dead. God never intended for women to live without the womb he gave them or their five other sex organs. When doctors amputate these life-sustaining organs, they are deciding your future. I did not chose the future I now have to face. I would never have chosen the hell that is now my life and will be forever. There is no going back. The damage is permanent.

Please consider personality change when considering a hysterectomy and then run......