The True Price of Hysterectomy

The true price of hysterectomy and castration on a woman’s life is incalculable. There is no way the price, pain and grief brought on by these surgeries can be measured. Our ultimate example of suffering is Christ of course. He gave his life so we could have life. Our only other example of ‘horrific’ suffering is seen in the book of Job in the Bible. I think most people think of Job when they think of suffering; especially suffering that is beyond measure.

Job was ‘hit’ in all three major areas in his life: family, finance and physical health. He was hit in his mind, body and spirit. If a person is hit hard in even one of these areas, it’s difficult to keep it together. It’s extremely hard if not impossible to heal and get beyond grief and suffering when there is not one part of a person left ‘intact’. When hit in all areas and at once, it is not possible to keep it together; at least not without divine intervention and help.

When a woman is hysterectomized and castrated, she suffers losses in all areas of her person instantly and the grief she consequently suffers is in ways that are beyond measure. The worst part is that she usually does not even realize what is happening. When we know what is happening to us, we know we have a problem and can seek out help. Most women who have had these horrific surgeries are told there are few (if any) negative consequences from the surgery.

Too often, women are made to feel that there is something wrong with them if they ‘suffer’ or ‘struggle’ after these surgeries. Christ said that we can’t heal a wound by saying it is not there. In order to make it through trauma and suffering, we must first realize and ‘face’ the fact that we have a problem. Only then, can we begin to find a solution and/or ‘healing’.

Every woman who has been hysterectomized has a problem; a huge problem. However, it's very common for that woman and those around her to not recognize that there is a serious problem because they have been told by a ‘doctor’ that all is well. Sadly, many women suffer the unbearable grief of hysterectomy alone. There is a spiritual impact of hysterectomy in addition to the physical and mental consequences. Grief is a natural emotion we feel when we experience a loss and make no mistake; having your womb removed is a loss without measure. It is a loss that God did not intend for any woman. Yet, a woman must grieve in order to heal if she has been violated by hysterectomy. Grief is a natural God-given process we must go through.

Those who don’t understand or realize what’s happening to the woman who has been hysterectomized will not know there is a real problem that requires a real solution. Unfortunately for millions of women living without their organs, there really is no solution via a pill or patch, etc. to help them heal in the physical realm. The only hope for true healing is through the spirit realm; through God. Hysterectomy is not reversible and the damage done to a woman is permanent. There is no way to restore that woman to her ‘former self’ or ‘former health’ in the medical realm. The only real ‘healing’ can and must come from God; the one who made woman to begin with.

Isaiah 53:4 says that Christ bore our griefs and carried our sorrows. The pain and suffering brought on by hysterectomy simply can’t be carried by a woman. It is too much to bear for any woman. I know this because I have suffered a lifetime of traumatic events and circumstances and I have always found a way to ‘fix’ my situation. I could 'fix' any problem or trauma. If you've read my blog, then you understand what I’m talking about here. Hysterectomy was the one trauma in forty-something years I can't seem to ‘fix’. It was not until I saw the spiritual aspect and/or damage from hysterectomy that I realized where to turn for ‘healing’.

God and God alone understands what hysterectomy does to a woman. God can bring ‘healing’ to a woman who has been hysterectomized. That woman won’t ever be the ‘same’ as before the surgery. But, God can restore that woman spiritually and that is critical. Psalms 18:2 says “The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower.” Psalms 18:6 says “In my distress, I called upon the Lord, and cried unto my God: he heard my voice out of his temple, and my cry came before him, even into his ears.” Even into his ears….

Verse 17 of the same chapter goes on to say that God delivers us from our enemy. Believe me when I tell you that any doctor who takes your womb without medical necessity (which is usually the case) is your enemy. Make no mistake about that. 1 Corinthians 3:16 says “Know ye not that ye are the temple of God, and that the Spirit of God dwelleth in you?” The very next scripture (verse 17) says “If any man (like your gynecologist who took your organs for example) defile the temple of God, him shall God destroy; for the temple of God is holy, which temple ye are.”

I have a ‘healthy’ fear of God and have had my entire life. I would never want to incur God’s wrath. The Bible is very clear on the issue of how he sees us. He sees us as his temple; ‘the temple of God’. He sees us as holy before him. The Bible is equally clear regarding the issue of what will happen to any man who defiles God’s temple. The scripture says plainly “him shall God destroy.” Any doctor, nurse, or medical person or has taken part in destroying God’s temple via hysterectomy will pay for it in ways they can’t begin to comprehend or imagine. "God is not a man that he should lie nor a son of man that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill?" (Numbers 23:19) It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of a LIVING God!

Satan has reeked his greatest destruction on mankind via hysterectomy. Yet, this is not the worst part. The worst part is that he has managed to destroy God’s temple and reek this destruction without God’s temple knowing and realizing it. I have asked God to show me why I had to lose my healthy organs when I did not need surgery or agree to it. Remember that I refused to sign the surgical consent. Yet, I was knocked out against my will and my organs taken regardless.

In my mind, I believed I had suffered enough loss in so many ways my whole life… I had learned to live without my own children. I just couldn't understand why something so horrific and truly damaging beyond measure had to happen to me. I held it together for forty something years and took very good care of myself only to have a doctor ultimately ‘ruin’ me in every sense of the word.

My former doctor, Bradley Busacco,  had a smirk on his face the day my attorney took his deposition that I will never forget. I will also never forget his answer when my attorney asked him how he came to take my organs when I had not given consent. He lied. He said that we had a prior agreement that my mother would decide and consent for me on the day of my surgery. That was a complete and utter lie and makes no sense of course. No such conversation ever took place. I am reminded here of who is the father of all lies according to scripture.

I was raped at age eleven. My youngest children were taken by their father via a very public custody battle in Texas in 1998 and my children remain in Texas to this day. I was in a bank robbery with a man who had a gun and bomb when I worked in D.C. I'm no stranger to trauma...

These are but a few of the traumas I have suffered over my lifetime. I have dealt with real terror and trauma in my life but not any of that begins to compare to the terror and trauma brought on by the taking of my womb and other female organs. I have forgiven those who have terrorized me and traumatized me in the past but I could not find a way to forgive Dr. Busacco for what he did to me.

I filed a lawsuit against him which is still pending but, even if the case were to go to trial and I were to ‘win’, I have still lost everything. Something precious and without measure was taken from me; something I can never get back. No amount of money could ever make up for what I’ve lost. Remember that God allowed Satan to take Job’s health last. Not even Job lost everything at once as does a hysterectomized woman.

So, I asked God about that. What can a woman who has lost ‘herself’ via hysterectomy do? I have never dealt with anything even remotely as traumatic as hysterectomy and to think it was done against my will and without my consent and for no reason was more than I could bear. What does a woman do when she's so profoundly harmed on purpose by someone she trusted to 'first do no harm'? I just could not get a grasp on how to accept what has been done to me and I’m somebody who has accepted a lot of injustice in my life and moved on.

God gave me an answer and it is the answer I am sharing with you here God will take it up with my former doctor and your doctor in ways we could never imagine. My body (my temple), your body (your temple) has been defiled and by doctors who were trusted to 'FIRST do no harm' to us. Doctors are respected in their communities and by their peers. Even when doctors purposely harm, they are respected. On the other hand, women are made to feel like ‘freaks’ and like they don’t matter. The devastation is just too drastic to cope with.

God and God alone has to take care of such a drastic situation. There is nothing we can do to ‘right’ this horrific wrong and injustice. I know I have a limited amount of energy; especially since my surgery. I make a choice every day I wake up to spend what energy I have left finding ways to help woman learn the ‘truth’ about hysterectomy; the truth their doctors won't tell them. Never in a million years did I think that the ‘truth’ I would be helping women to see would involve their spiritual ‘self’ though. That is the only area where there can be 'true restoration'. That seems to be where God is personally leading me to focus my efforts.

I will continue to do all I know to do to help woman who've been violated and defiled by hysterectomy to learn how to heal spiritually and I will continue to speak out against hysterectomy as long as I live. I  know this is my calling.

It is my deepest hope and prayer that my destruction and loss will bring about healing in other women who suffer through the permanent and life-long consequences of hysterectomy and it is also my deepest hope and prayer that millions of women will be saved from this destructive and devastating surgery. If I can help save other women from my same fate, then I can accept what has been done to me and trust God to make things right in ways that only he can.

For the rest of my life, I will continue to work toward educating women (and men) about hysterectomy, the consequences of hysterectomy and the alternatives to hysterectomy. I will continue to work toward passing legislation that will ensure doctors tell women the 'truth' about hysterectomy so there can be real informed consent. I will continue to expose the hysterectomy HOAX.