You're Not a Victim If You Take Action!
You're not a victim if you take action - some kind of action.
And while contacting the police, lawyers, other women, lawmakers, etc. might make me feel less like a victim externally, more important to me is the necessity of no longer feeling like a victim internally. I have never allowed myself to assume the role of victim. I don't want to do that now.
And for me, that means to write. The way I process, heal and communicate is through my written words. Ultimately, as negative and painful as the experience of being hysterectomized and castrated was for me, it's made me connect with and understand who I am.. Who I AM at the deepest level of my being.
When my former doctor took the violent actions he did against me, something was taken from me in that instant: my value and my worth. As a human being. As a woman.
In that moment, I was nothing more than an object that happened to possess the pieces (the body parts) necessary to make money for that doctor (and that hospital). In that moment, I was treated as property (though never purchased) that he felt he had the right and ability to touch and use for his own purpose.
In that moment... I had no voice, no thoughts, no feelings, no soul, no mind, no emotions, no power and no potential. I only had legs and what lived between them. And he felt entitled to that; entitled to take something so precious and protected from me without actually knowing or caring anything about me. I hardly knew that doctor. I met him less than two months before he violated me and subsequently ruined my life.
This is how I call it what it is:
Ugly. Violent. Shameful. Unacceptable. Wrong. Immoral. Evil.
This is how I accept it for what it is:
Painful. Hurtful. Discriminatory. Disrespectful. Gut-Wrenching. Haunting.
This is how I soften it, reign it in, make peace with it, and turn it into something I can at least live with and not lose my sanity completely.
I feel. I connect. I cry. I learn. I speak. I fight. I write.
My horror in this situation is matchless to anything I have ever experienced before. I no longer stand and cry like a child though. I remember my strength and I yell like a woman. And then I remember that I do not yell only for my own sake, but for the sake of millions of other women. I yell my story. I yell our story.
Never before have I been in the position of knowing what it feels like to have something taken from me in such a horrific and barbaric way.
Until now.
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Sunday, December 12, 2010
'THE RAPE'
I can't explain the devastation, the utter sadness and deep sense of loss that settled into my heart and soul the morning I woke up and realized I had been gutted and castrated. I no longer felt the need to function as I once did; as a human being. I felt more like a paper doll, flat and empty. I knew on some level that I was still a human being but it did not feel that way anymore. I would never feel that way again.
I titled this post 'RAPE' because that is what they did to me - the doctor and all who assisted him. They RAPED me in the most violent way. I re-live it day after day after day after day after day after day after day after day after day after day. A nurse put me to sleep through my IV without telling me and they whisked me away to an operating room, strapped me down to a cold table and spread my legs apart and proceeded to amputate six healthy functioning organs from my body. I said NO. I didn't need this surgery. I said NO. I did not sign for this surgery. I said NO. I said NO. I said NO. I said NO. I said NO. The doctor and O.R. team did not care that I said NO. They stole my soul that day. I woke up in complete devastation; mentally, physically and spiritually.
It's been over three years and I'm no better. I'm worse. I walk around like a zombie - like a dead woman walking. I don't feel like a person. Nothing is the same. Nothing makes sense. Songs I once loved don't make sense anymore. The sky is not blue any longer and the birds don't sing; at least I no loner hear them... They make noise to me now. I feel like I live in some type of alternate world; some type of hell on earth that only those who have been through what I've been through know about.
Doctors who RAPE women as I was RAPED are criminals. Hospitals give them a place to commit their crimes. They act as agents. This is so evil and yet it's true. I melt into my bed at night on the nights I can sleep at all and pray I don't wake up. John Cougar once sang "Life goes on even after the thrill of living is gone." My life has gone on but it is not worth living. I'm completely empty and feel nothing but pain and emptiness.
I pray that God will use me and what's happened to me to help stop other women from having to endure the gut-wrenching trauma I live with day and night. If I can't make a difference for other women, then I'd rather not be here. My sole purpose and focus now is to try to stop this mutilating, destructive, senseless surgery called HYSTERECTOMY.
Please, if you are reading this post, tell every woman you know about the true consequences of HYSTERECTOMYAND CASTRATION. Don't be silent. This matters too much. Tell someone; even a stranger. It doesn't matter who you tell. Just TELL. Keep telling until this barbaric mutilation of women ends.
I titled this post 'RAPE' because that is what they did to me - the doctor and all who assisted him. They RAPED me in the most violent way. I re-live it day after day after day after day after day after day after day after day after day after day. A nurse put me to sleep through my IV without telling me and they whisked me away to an operating room, strapped me down to a cold table and spread my legs apart and proceeded to amputate six healthy functioning organs from my body. I said NO. I didn't need this surgery. I said NO. I did not sign for this surgery. I said NO. I said NO. I said NO. I said NO. I said NO. The doctor and O.R. team did not care that I said NO. They stole my soul that day. I woke up in complete devastation; mentally, physically and spiritually.
It's been over three years and I'm no better. I'm worse. I walk around like a zombie - like a dead woman walking. I don't feel like a person. Nothing is the same. Nothing makes sense. Songs I once loved don't make sense anymore. The sky is not blue any longer and the birds don't sing; at least I no loner hear them... They make noise to me now. I feel like I live in some type of alternate world; some type of hell on earth that only those who have been through what I've been through know about.
Doctors who RAPE women as I was RAPED are criminals. Hospitals give them a place to commit their crimes. They act as agents. This is so evil and yet it's true. I melt into my bed at night on the nights I can sleep at all and pray I don't wake up. John Cougar once sang "Life goes on even after the thrill of living is gone." My life has gone on but it is not worth living. I'm completely empty and feel nothing but pain and emptiness.
I pray that God will use me and what's happened to me to help stop other women from having to endure the gut-wrenching trauma I live with day and night. If I can't make a difference for other women, then I'd rather not be here. My sole purpose and focus now is to try to stop this mutilating, destructive, senseless surgery called HYSTERECTOMY.
Please, if you are reading this post, tell every woman you know about the true consequences of HYSTERECTOMYAND CASTRATION. Don't be silent. This matters too much. Tell someone; even a stranger. It doesn't matter who you tell. Just TELL. Keep telling until this barbaric mutilation of women ends.
Monday, December 6, 2010
I Woke Up a Different Person
I watched a 48 Hours Mystery this past weekend and it prompted me to do a lot of thinking about crime, suffering, justice, injustice, etc. The story, based on a true story, was a sad one as usual... There was a young couple out on a date taking pictures of a beautiful full moon when, out of nowhere, a young man appeared and shot them both several times and left them for dead. The young woman survived against all odds.
My boyfriend watched this story along with me and he continually commented about how the 'bastard' that shot them should be killed. He wanted the young man's family to have closure and the young woman who survived to receive closure/justice. He was so upset about how this young couple was attacked for no reason and lives turned upside down; people who were happy and trusting were now angry, sad and depressed.
I began thinking about how what happened to me via hysterectomy was even worse than what this young couple endured. People don't see it that way though. They don't see it that way because a doctor committed a crime against me; not just your everyday 'ordinary criminal'. And... this is important... What happened to me did not happen out in the woods or the side of the road but IN A HOSPITAL; a place where one should be able to reasonably expect help and/or healing.
I remember clearly the police officer I spoke with about what happened to me telling me that my case was 'CIVIL' because it happened in a hospital and it was a doctor who had me knocked out against my will and stole my organs. I have been the victim of rape twice in my life. I was in a bank robbery with a man holding a gun and a bomb. These were horrific crimes but they happened at the hands of someone I did not know or trust and they happened in places where one could reasonably expect a crime to take place. For this reason, I survived the rapes and hold-up much better than the unconsented hysterectomy and castration.
In my case, I had no reason to expect that a doctor would remove six of my healthy organs; especially without my consent. Talk about being horrified beyond words.... I still am. I don't know if I will ever be able to put down in type what this horrific crime against me by a trusted doctor has done to me. I need closure and justice just like the woman in the 48 Hours Mystery story needed closure and justice.
Society does not recognize hysterectomy and castration as a horrible injustice against women. Every minute of every day in hospitals across the U.S., women are being gutted and castrated for money. 90% of hysterectomies performed are medically unnecessary. Women are too often 'forced' into this surgery by their trusted doctors. Many women, like myself, do not even consent and yet their life-sustaining organs are 'stolen' anyway. Sadly, women are left to find a way to cope in a situation where there is no cure or 'fix'. It's devastating......
I want to state a very bold fact about hysterectomy that most do not consider. Other than brain surgery, hysterectomy is the only surgery that can truly change who you are; who you have been your entire life. You can have a limb amputated but you are still the same person inside. You can be burned terribly and disfigured but you are still the same person inside. I could give countless examples here but my point is that hysterectomy removes not just a part of you; it removes YOU.
I woke up from surgery and immediately knew I was not the same person. It has been more than three years and I grow further away from that person more and more every day. If I could have one wish it would be to have my female (sex) organs back and to be the woman I was before hysterectomy altered my life forever.
Every organ in a woman's body; including the brain, heart, thyroid gland, etc. needs hormones to function properly. There are over 400 receptor sites in a woman's body that must have hormones tell them what to do and when to do it. When these hormones are taken via hysterectomy and castration; a woman's body is violently thrown into total chaos and havoc. Every organ is affected. The body is devastated.... Worst of all, there is no way to 'fix' it.
A woman's personality changes. Emotions are blunted. Life becomes dull. I feel like the walking dead. God never intended for women to live without the womb he gave them or their five other sex organs. When doctors amputate these life-sustaining organs, they are deciding your future. I did not chose the future I now have to face. I would never have chosen the hell that is now my life and will be forever. There is no going back. The damage is permanent.
Please consider personality change when considering a hysterectomy and then run......
My boyfriend watched this story along with me and he continually commented about how the 'bastard' that shot them should be killed. He wanted the young man's family to have closure and the young woman who survived to receive closure/justice. He was so upset about how this young couple was attacked for no reason and lives turned upside down; people who were happy and trusting were now angry, sad and depressed.
I began thinking about how what happened to me via hysterectomy was even worse than what this young couple endured. People don't see it that way though. They don't see it that way because a doctor committed a crime against me; not just your everyday 'ordinary criminal'. And... this is important... What happened to me did not happen out in the woods or the side of the road but IN A HOSPITAL; a place where one should be able to reasonably expect help and/or healing.
I remember clearly the police officer I spoke with about what happened to me telling me that my case was 'CIVIL' because it happened in a hospital and it was a doctor who had me knocked out against my will and stole my organs. I have been the victim of rape twice in my life. I was in a bank robbery with a man holding a gun and a bomb. These were horrific crimes but they happened at the hands of someone I did not know or trust and they happened in places where one could reasonably expect a crime to take place. For this reason, I survived the rapes and hold-up much better than the unconsented hysterectomy and castration.
In my case, I had no reason to expect that a doctor would remove six of my healthy organs; especially without my consent. Talk about being horrified beyond words.... I still am. I don't know if I will ever be able to put down in type what this horrific crime against me by a trusted doctor has done to me. I need closure and justice just like the woman in the 48 Hours Mystery story needed closure and justice.
Society does not recognize hysterectomy and castration as a horrible injustice against women. Every minute of every day in hospitals across the U.S., women are being gutted and castrated for money. 90% of hysterectomies performed are medically unnecessary. Women are too often 'forced' into this surgery by their trusted doctors. Many women, like myself, do not even consent and yet their life-sustaining organs are 'stolen' anyway. Sadly, women are left to find a way to cope in a situation where there is no cure or 'fix'. It's devastating......
I want to state a very bold fact about hysterectomy that most do not consider. Other than brain surgery, hysterectomy is the only surgery that can truly change who you are; who you have been your entire life. You can have a limb amputated but you are still the same person inside. You can be burned terribly and disfigured but you are still the same person inside. I could give countless examples here but my point is that hysterectomy removes not just a part of you; it removes YOU.
I woke up from surgery and immediately knew I was not the same person. It has been more than three years and I grow further away from that person more and more every day. If I could have one wish it would be to have my female (sex) organs back and to be the woman I was before hysterectomy altered my life forever.
Every organ in a woman's body; including the brain, heart, thyroid gland, etc. needs hormones to function properly. There are over 400 receptor sites in a woman's body that must have hormones tell them what to do and when to do it. When these hormones are taken via hysterectomy and castration; a woman's body is violently thrown into total chaos and havoc. Every organ is affected. The body is devastated.... Worst of all, there is no way to 'fix' it.
A woman's personality changes. Emotions are blunted. Life becomes dull. I feel like the walking dead. God never intended for women to live without the womb he gave them or their five other sex organs. When doctors amputate these life-sustaining organs, they are deciding your future. I did not chose the future I now have to face. I would never have chosen the hell that is now my life and will be forever. There is no going back. The damage is permanent.
Please consider personality change when considering a hysterectomy and then run......
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Minutes from Hearing on June 16, 2010 in Frankfort KY
Hysterectomy Alternatives and After Effects (My testimony before the House, House and Welfare Committee in Frankfort KY on June 16, 2010)
Robin Karr stated that changes need to be made to the informed consent laws pertaining to hysterectomy that will truly inform and educate women in regard to the functions of the female sex organs throughout their lives and the consequences of them being removed. By the age of 60, approximately one-third of all American women have had a hysterectomy. In the South, women are 50 percent more likely to have a hysterectomy than in any other part of the country. Hysterectomy is the number one unnecessary surgery being performed in America today. According to Ms. Karr, the surgery generates billions of dollars for gynecologists and drug companies, but the devastation to women, society, and the health care system is beyond measure. Today, it is estimated that less than one percent of hysterectomies are performed for gynecological cancers. Several published articles state that a hysterectomy, especially ovary removal, can cause heart disease, bone loss, dementia, Parkinson’s disease, and memory loss. She suggested that a video be presented to every woman who has been told she needs a hysterectomy that would contain the information needed to make an informed decision about hysterectomy and its consequences and the available alternatives. Information provided by Ms. Karr is included in the meeting folder in the LRC Library.
Senator Carroll made a motion, seconded by Representative Glenn, and approved by voice vote that the information provided by Ms. Karr be forwarded to the Department for Public Health, Cabinet for Health and Family Services, for its response and requested information be sent to the committee about Kentucky’s informed consent laws as they relate to hysterectomy procedures.
Please contact Rep. Tom Burch, Sen. Julian Carroll or Rep. Glenn and tell them how you feel about what is happening to women in America via Hysterectomy and Castration. In 1985, the U.S. Supreme Court ruled it contituted 'cruel and unusual punishment' to surgically castrate child molesters and rapists. Yet, American GYN's surgically castrate over half a million women a year; women who have committed no crime. Please speak out against this horrific injustice. Don't be silent about things that really matter.
Robin Karr stated that changes need to be made to the informed consent laws pertaining to hysterectomy that will truly inform and educate women in regard to the functions of the female sex organs throughout their lives and the consequences of them being removed. By the age of 60, approximately one-third of all American women have had a hysterectomy. In the South, women are 50 percent more likely to have a hysterectomy than in any other part of the country. Hysterectomy is the number one unnecessary surgery being performed in America today. According to Ms. Karr, the surgery generates billions of dollars for gynecologists and drug companies, but the devastation to women, society, and the health care system is beyond measure. Today, it is estimated that less than one percent of hysterectomies are performed for gynecological cancers. Several published articles state that a hysterectomy, especially ovary removal, can cause heart disease, bone loss, dementia, Parkinson’s disease, and memory loss. She suggested that a video be presented to every woman who has been told she needs a hysterectomy that would contain the information needed to make an informed decision about hysterectomy and its consequences and the available alternatives. Information provided by Ms. Karr is included in the meeting folder in the LRC Library.
Senator Carroll made a motion, seconded by Representative Glenn, and approved by voice vote that the information provided by Ms. Karr be forwarded to the Department for Public Health, Cabinet for Health and Family Services, for its response and requested information be sent to the committee about Kentucky’s informed consent laws as they relate to hysterectomy procedures.
Please contact Rep. Tom Burch, Sen. Julian Carroll or Rep. Glenn and tell them how you feel about what is happening to women in America via Hysterectomy and Castration. In 1985, the U.S. Supreme Court ruled it contituted 'cruel and unusual punishment' to surgically castrate child molesters and rapists. Yet, American GYN's surgically castrate over half a million women a year; women who have committed no crime. Please speak out against this horrific injustice. Don't be silent about things that really matter.
Monday, September 27, 2010
Third Year Anniversary Since Being Hysterectomized and Castrated
It seems only fitting that I post today of all days. A summary of the Consent Form, Pathology Report and Surgical/Recovery Room report from my hysterectomy case follow:
CASE SUMMARY:
1)Consent Form
2)Pathology Report
3)Surgical/Recovery Room
1)Please note the surgical consent form included in the hospital record is not signed by me, but by my mother. It should be noted that she had no legal authority to sign my consent form; no power of attorney. There are two obvious issues in regard to the consent form.
First and foremost, all hospitals must include a consent form in the hospital record which has been signed by the "patient". Only non-competent adults must have another adult (with power of attorney) sign or consent for them. Parents must sign for their children. Only in life-threatening emergency situations may physicians make choices for patients. In my case, the operation was elective. There was no emergent situation and nobody other than myself had authority to sign the consent.
The other obvious issue related to the consent form is that the medical record clearly states that a ‘supra cervical hysterectomy’ was to be performed on me. This operation leaves the cervix in place to provide a normal vaginal length, maintain pelvic support, conserve sexual response of the cervix and reduce medical complications such as blood loss from the vaginal cuff. The operation that was performed on me (as confirmed by the pathology report) notes that my cervix was removed. Removal of my cervix was not listed on the consent form. Thus, the operation listed on the medical consent form was not performed.
2)The pathology report is not proper in that it states "third degree prolapse" which cannot be confirmed by the pathologist. This is simply confirmed by the words of Dr. Bradley Busacco. This is an erroneous remark on the pathology report. The report should read Dr. Bradley Busacco "claims" third degree prolapse. The pathology report cannot confirm this finding because my uterus had already been removed.
For the record, the use of third degree prolapse is often used by surgeons in order to obtain payment for hysterectomy when there is no pathology and no indication for hysterectomy. In other words, prolapse is used throughout the medical surgical industry in order to bill for hysterectomy when there is no indication for one. This practice is an intentional abuse known to the industry, but not known to the general public. Hospitals are supposed to review all of these cases under peer review to prevent the abuse of removal of healthy organs for economic gain. Sadly, in the case of hysterectomy, peer review is not taking place.
My pathology report confirms normal functional ovaries were removed; thereby castrating me. The report also confirms that my uterus had small non-pathological fibroid masses. It should be noted that I had no symptoms from those "small" fibroids. The enlarged uterus I was told I had is contraindicated for vaginal removal by many authorities; including ACOG (American College of Obstetricians and Gynecologists). None of the report made mention of the abdominal wall prolapse for which I sought medical care from Dr. Bradley Busacco to begin with.
In fact, nothing in the report is consistent with the condition for which I sought treatment. I was needlessly "gutted and castrated", and still. I have abdominal wall prolapse. None of the pathology findings indicated the need for a hysterectomy or removal of my ovaries.
Both the hospital and pathology department have an obligation to peer review surgical cases in which there are obvious issues. My case is one that would certainly fall under routine peer review. The fact that the surgery was to maintain my cervix and my cervix was removed is a clear indication for peer review. Yet, no peer review took place. In fact, Mercy Hospital advised me by letter that I received the surgery I signed for. There's two issues with what Mercy's representative stated in their letter. 1) I didn't sign my consent and 2) a different operation than the one listed on my consent was performed. Visit my web site @ www.hysterectomyconsequences.com to view my medical documents; including my consent form and Mercy's letter.
3)Surgical/Recovery Room: A male representing himself as the anesthesiologist gave me medication in my IV against my pleas to not sedate me even though I told him I had not consented to surgery and was waiting to speak with my doctor. After being knocked out, I was quite literally "kidnapped" and taken to the operating room for an operation I did not desire nor consent to. (My mother, son and fiance all witnessed what happened to me). It should be noted that Mercy Hospital withheld the fact that a nurse, not an M.D., sedated me in all communications since the operation.
When I woke up from surgery, I was in complete terror; knowing that the pain I felt was from the removal of my female organs. The nurse documented my words and reaction which completely reflect the terror of a person having been drugged, assaulted, and battered. The hospital record clearly indicates that I was in severe pain, suicidal from the castration of my body and suffering from severe blood loss. Dr. Bradley Busacco was notified about my condition according to the hospital record. Yet, there is no plan of action documented in the hospital record for the reality that I woke up "gutted" of my female organs. Equally disturbing, there is no record of anyone following up with me after the surgery regarding my emotional and mental state.
The nurse documented my words and also my bleeding condition, but did not follow hospital protocol to inform authorities that a serious incident report must be filed. No incident report is noted in the medical record. Additionally, no response by the surgeon of record, Dr. Bradley Busacco, is found in the recovery notes.
It is beyond difficult to believe that an entire surgical team would carry out such an outrageous assault on an unsuspecting patient. Believe it. It is happening (especially to women) every minute of every day in hospitals across the U.S. I hope what I have posted here will serve as a warning to any woman considering hysterectomy and/or castration.
My whole nightmare experience reminds me of the song "Hotel California". Remember the line "You can check in any time you like but you can never leave." I checked into the hospital and decided that I did not want to have surgery because the nurse tried to force me to consent for a completely different surgery than the one I had previously agreed to. I wanted to leave. I refused to sign the surgical consent form, refused to be sedated, and yet I was drugged against my will and taken to the operating room where I was gutted and castrated.
Every facet of my life changed forever that day. Dr. Bradley Busacco and the surgical team at Mercy Hospital in Cincinnati Ohio decided a future for me that I did not want and still can't face. Please don't allow yourself to be placed in a situation you can't escape from. I will forever regret checking myself into that hospital; forever regret.......
CASE SUMMARY:
1)Consent Form
2)Pathology Report
3)Surgical/Recovery Room
1)Please note the surgical consent form included in the hospital record is not signed by me, but by my mother. It should be noted that she had no legal authority to sign my consent form; no power of attorney. There are two obvious issues in regard to the consent form.
First and foremost, all hospitals must include a consent form in the hospital record which has been signed by the "patient". Only non-competent adults must have another adult (with power of attorney) sign or consent for them. Parents must sign for their children. Only in life-threatening emergency situations may physicians make choices for patients. In my case, the operation was elective. There was no emergent situation and nobody other than myself had authority to sign the consent.
The other obvious issue related to the consent form is that the medical record clearly states that a ‘supra cervical hysterectomy’ was to be performed on me. This operation leaves the cervix in place to provide a normal vaginal length, maintain pelvic support, conserve sexual response of the cervix and reduce medical complications such as blood loss from the vaginal cuff. The operation that was performed on me (as confirmed by the pathology report) notes that my cervix was removed. Removal of my cervix was not listed on the consent form. Thus, the operation listed on the medical consent form was not performed.
2)The pathology report is not proper in that it states "third degree prolapse" which cannot be confirmed by the pathologist. This is simply confirmed by the words of Dr. Bradley Busacco. This is an erroneous remark on the pathology report. The report should read Dr. Bradley Busacco "claims" third degree prolapse. The pathology report cannot confirm this finding because my uterus had already been removed.
For the record, the use of third degree prolapse is often used by surgeons in order to obtain payment for hysterectomy when there is no pathology and no indication for hysterectomy. In other words, prolapse is used throughout the medical surgical industry in order to bill for hysterectomy when there is no indication for one. This practice is an intentional abuse known to the industry, but not known to the general public. Hospitals are supposed to review all of these cases under peer review to prevent the abuse of removal of healthy organs for economic gain. Sadly, in the case of hysterectomy, peer review is not taking place.
My pathology report confirms normal functional ovaries were removed; thereby castrating me. The report also confirms that my uterus had small non-pathological fibroid masses. It should be noted that I had no symptoms from those "small" fibroids. The enlarged uterus I was told I had is contraindicated for vaginal removal by many authorities; including ACOG (American College of Obstetricians and Gynecologists). None of the report made mention of the abdominal wall prolapse for which I sought medical care from Dr. Bradley Busacco to begin with.
In fact, nothing in the report is consistent with the condition for which I sought treatment. I was needlessly "gutted and castrated", and still. I have abdominal wall prolapse. None of the pathology findings indicated the need for a hysterectomy or removal of my ovaries.
Both the hospital and pathology department have an obligation to peer review surgical cases in which there are obvious issues. My case is one that would certainly fall under routine peer review. The fact that the surgery was to maintain my cervix and my cervix was removed is a clear indication for peer review. Yet, no peer review took place. In fact, Mercy Hospital advised me by letter that I received the surgery I signed for. There's two issues with what Mercy's representative stated in their letter. 1) I didn't sign my consent and 2) a different operation than the one listed on my consent was performed. Visit my web site @ www.hysterectomyconsequences.com to view my medical documents; including my consent form and Mercy's letter.
3)Surgical/Recovery Room: A male representing himself as the anesthesiologist gave me medication in my IV against my pleas to not sedate me even though I told him I had not consented to surgery and was waiting to speak with my doctor. After being knocked out, I was quite literally "kidnapped" and taken to the operating room for an operation I did not desire nor consent to. (My mother, son and fiance all witnessed what happened to me). It should be noted that Mercy Hospital withheld the fact that a nurse, not an M.D., sedated me in all communications since the operation.
When I woke up from surgery, I was in complete terror; knowing that the pain I felt was from the removal of my female organs. The nurse documented my words and reaction which completely reflect the terror of a person having been drugged, assaulted, and battered. The hospital record clearly indicates that I was in severe pain, suicidal from the castration of my body and suffering from severe blood loss. Dr. Bradley Busacco was notified about my condition according to the hospital record. Yet, there is no plan of action documented in the hospital record for the reality that I woke up "gutted" of my female organs. Equally disturbing, there is no record of anyone following up with me after the surgery regarding my emotional and mental state.
The nurse documented my words and also my bleeding condition, but did not follow hospital protocol to inform authorities that a serious incident report must be filed. No incident report is noted in the medical record. Additionally, no response by the surgeon of record, Dr. Bradley Busacco, is found in the recovery notes.
It is beyond difficult to believe that an entire surgical team would carry out such an outrageous assault on an unsuspecting patient. Believe it. It is happening (especially to women) every minute of every day in hospitals across the U.S. I hope what I have posted here will serve as a warning to any woman considering hysterectomy and/or castration.
My whole nightmare experience reminds me of the song "Hotel California". Remember the line "You can check in any time you like but you can never leave." I checked into the hospital and decided that I did not want to have surgery because the nurse tried to force me to consent for a completely different surgery than the one I had previously agreed to. I wanted to leave. I refused to sign the surgical consent form, refused to be sedated, and yet I was drugged against my will and taken to the operating room where I was gutted and castrated.
Every facet of my life changed forever that day. Dr. Bradley Busacco and the surgical team at Mercy Hospital in Cincinnati Ohio decided a future for me that I did not want and still can't face. Please don't allow yourself to be placed in a situation you can't escape from. I will forever regret checking myself into that hospital; forever regret.......
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Police Officer Explains to Me How My Case is 'Civil'
In many of my posts, I've said that I believe my case should be in the criminal court system; not the civil system. I wanted to pursue criminal charges from the very beginning... Yet, every lawyer I spoke with told me that cases like mine can only be pursued in the civil system. In fact, a few lawyers told me that the police and DA would laugh at the mere suggestion that my case should be considered criminal. As angry as this made me, I accepted that this is the way things are. At first...
This continued to 'eat away' at me though and I mean really eat away at me... I just could not accept that a hospital and doctor could knock someone out against their will and steal six healthy organs without that person's consent and that their actions would be considered 'civil'.
Finally, just last week, I made an appointment to speak to a Police Corporate Lt.in the division which presides over Mercy Hospital Anderson and Dr. Bradley Busacco's Seven Hill's Women's Health office. I could no longer accept the word of any lawyer. I had to hear it from the police myself.
My boyfriend and I met with this Police Corporate Lt. and told him the facts of my case and asked him if my they would investigate my case and consider filing criminal charges against Dr. Busacco and Mercy Hospital Anderson. He listened to my story and then proceeded to tell me that my case was a civil case. I asked him to explain to me what was 'civil' about it.
He explained that if my house had been broken into and possessions stolen; the police could and would investigate and file charges if appropriate. He went on to say that the police could and would investigate and consider filing charges if my ex-doctor had 'fondled' me in some way. However, since I was knocked out and organs removed in a hospital; this was considered to be a civil matter. I suppose if what happened to me happened on the street and by an man not wearing a white coat; it would be a 'criminal' case.
I really don't have words to express how I felt as I walked away from the police station that evening. I felt physically sick for sure. I felt as if I might pass out. I felt like I wanted to die. I felt a million things and all at once. I felt sickened by the fact that I live in a society and country that prides itself on 'justice' and being the land of the free and the home of the brave and all of that. The officer suggested that I go to the media for help with my case. Of course, I have done that.
I will never accept what has been done to me. I will never accept that I have been hysterectomized and castrated against my will and without my consent and that this is considered by the society I live in to be a 'civil' matter. I followed every safeguard in reference to deciding to have surgery.
1) I got a second opinion. 2) I took a witness with me to my pre-surgery meeting with my ex-doctor two days before the surgery took place 3) I read the consent form given to me at the hospital and realized that the consent allowed for removal of four more organs than what I'd agreed to; not just my uterus which Dr. Busacco and I had discussed and agreed to only two days prior. 3) I refused to sign the consent form and told the nurse I did not want surgery and wanted to speak to Dr. Busacco. What more could I have done to protect myself. I was knocked out against my will (with three family members present as witnesses) and given a total hysterectomy without my consent.
When I was told I had had surgery and that all of my healthy female organs had been removed; I cried out that I wanted to die. To be honest, there are many days I wish that I had died on the operating table that day. The truth of what was done to me in a 'safe' place is much too devastating to think about. I can't begin to comprehend how Dr. Busacco and Mercy Hospital thought they could get away with something so wrong; something illegal.
Now I know. What they did to me is not considered illegal. Theft of organs is not the same as theft of 'material things'. As a society, we obviously place more value on 'things' and we do not value 'human life'. Justice is not blind. We have a very broken justice system in the United States. Money buys justice; not the truth. The truth is that it is the hospitals, doctors and drug companies who put our politicians in office. Therefore, the laws protect them, not innocent and unsuspecting patients.
No matter what any lawyer says, no matter what any police officer says, no matter what any DA says; what happened to me should never have happened and it is 'CRIMINAL'. Dr. Busacco and Mercy Hospital committed the "Ultimate Rape".
As I said via my testimony in Indiana in January with regard to House Bill 1366 (Hysterectomy Informed Consent) “The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing". This is indeed a very sad commentary on the state of things in the U.S. And, we look down our noses at other countries and their laws. We especially talk about Mexico and how they 'steal' organs for profit. Shame on America. Shame on America when you do the same thing. You just do it under the guise of medicine.
I have a final note about the 'civil system'... It's little more than a joke for many reasons but mainly because of the 'cap' on what juries are legally permitted to award to victims of medical malpractice. Tort Reform has effectively put an end to filing medical malpractice complaints against doctors and hospitals. Tort Reform was put in place to protect doctors and hospitals. There is no accountability - NONE! This creates a very dangerous medical environment for everyone. We need to reform Tort Reform! As it stands now, there's no way to pursue legal remedy.
Of course, there's always the avenue of filing a complaint with the medical board. Forget it! The medical board protects their own. I've been down that road... Filing a complaint with them is a waste of time and ink. Sadly, there appears to be no recourse for harmed patients; especially 'intentionally' harmed patients like me.
This continued to 'eat away' at me though and I mean really eat away at me... I just could not accept that a hospital and doctor could knock someone out against their will and steal six healthy organs without that person's consent and that their actions would be considered 'civil'.
Finally, just last week, I made an appointment to speak to a Police Corporate Lt.in the division which presides over Mercy Hospital Anderson and Dr. Bradley Busacco's Seven Hill's Women's Health office. I could no longer accept the word of any lawyer. I had to hear it from the police myself.
My boyfriend and I met with this Police Corporate Lt. and told him the facts of my case and asked him if my they would investigate my case and consider filing criminal charges against Dr. Busacco and Mercy Hospital Anderson. He listened to my story and then proceeded to tell me that my case was a civil case. I asked him to explain to me what was 'civil' about it.
He explained that if my house had been broken into and possessions stolen; the police could and would investigate and file charges if appropriate. He went on to say that the police could and would investigate and consider filing charges if my ex-doctor had 'fondled' me in some way. However, since I was knocked out and organs removed in a hospital; this was considered to be a civil matter. I suppose if what happened to me happened on the street and by an man not wearing a white coat; it would be a 'criminal' case.
I really don't have words to express how I felt as I walked away from the police station that evening. I felt physically sick for sure. I felt as if I might pass out. I felt like I wanted to die. I felt a million things and all at once. I felt sickened by the fact that I live in a society and country that prides itself on 'justice' and being the land of the free and the home of the brave and all of that. The officer suggested that I go to the media for help with my case. Of course, I have done that.
I will never accept what has been done to me. I will never accept that I have been hysterectomized and castrated against my will and without my consent and that this is considered by the society I live in to be a 'civil' matter. I followed every safeguard in reference to deciding to have surgery.
1) I got a second opinion. 2) I took a witness with me to my pre-surgery meeting with my ex-doctor two days before the surgery took place 3) I read the consent form given to me at the hospital and realized that the consent allowed for removal of four more organs than what I'd agreed to; not just my uterus which Dr. Busacco and I had discussed and agreed to only two days prior. 3) I refused to sign the consent form and told the nurse I did not want surgery and wanted to speak to Dr. Busacco. What more could I have done to protect myself. I was knocked out against my will (with three family members present as witnesses) and given a total hysterectomy without my consent.
When I was told I had had surgery and that all of my healthy female organs had been removed; I cried out that I wanted to die. To be honest, there are many days I wish that I had died on the operating table that day. The truth of what was done to me in a 'safe' place is much too devastating to think about. I can't begin to comprehend how Dr. Busacco and Mercy Hospital thought they could get away with something so wrong; something illegal.
Now I know. What they did to me is not considered illegal. Theft of organs is not the same as theft of 'material things'. As a society, we obviously place more value on 'things' and we do not value 'human life'. Justice is not blind. We have a very broken justice system in the United States. Money buys justice; not the truth. The truth is that it is the hospitals, doctors and drug companies who put our politicians in office. Therefore, the laws protect them, not innocent and unsuspecting patients.
No matter what any lawyer says, no matter what any police officer says, no matter what any DA says; what happened to me should never have happened and it is 'CRIMINAL'. Dr. Busacco and Mercy Hospital committed the "Ultimate Rape".
As I said via my testimony in Indiana in January with regard to House Bill 1366 (Hysterectomy Informed Consent) “The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing". This is indeed a very sad commentary on the state of things in the U.S. And, we look down our noses at other countries and their laws. We especially talk about Mexico and how they 'steal' organs for profit. Shame on America. Shame on America when you do the same thing. You just do it under the guise of medicine.
I have a final note about the 'civil system'... It's little more than a joke for many reasons but mainly because of the 'cap' on what juries are legally permitted to award to victims of medical malpractice. Tort Reform has effectively put an end to filing medical malpractice complaints against doctors and hospitals. Tort Reform was put in place to protect doctors and hospitals. There is no accountability - NONE! This creates a very dangerous medical environment for everyone. We need to reform Tort Reform! As it stands now, there's no way to pursue legal remedy.
Of course, there's always the avenue of filing a complaint with the medical board. Forget it! The medical board protects their own. I've been down that road... Filing a complaint with them is a waste of time and ink. Sadly, there appears to be no recourse for harmed patients; especially 'intentionally' harmed patients like me.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
The True Price of Hysterectomy
The true price of hysterectomy and castration on a woman’s life is incalculable. There is no way the price, pain and grief brought on by these surgeries can be measured. Our ultimate example of suffering is Christ of course. He gave his life so we could have life. Our only other example of ‘horrific’ suffering is seen in the book of Job in the Bible. I think most people think of Job when they think of suffering; especially suffering that is beyond measure.
Job was ‘hit’ in all three major areas in his life: family, finance and physical health. He was hit in his mind, body and spirit. If a person is hit hard in even one of these areas, it’s difficult to keep it together. It’s extremely hard if not impossible to heal and get beyond grief and suffering when there is not one part of a person left ‘intact’. When hit in all areas and at once, it is not possible to keep it together; at least not without divine intervention and help.
When a woman is hysterectomized and castrated, she suffers losses in all areas of her person instantly and the grief she consequently suffers is in ways that are beyond measure. The worst part is that she usually does not even realize what is happening. When we know what is happening to us, we know we have a problem and can seek out help. Most women who have had these horrific surgeries are told there are few (if any) negative consequences from the surgery.
Too often, women are made to feel that there is something wrong with them if they ‘suffer’ or ‘struggle’ after these surgeries. Christ said that we can’t heal a wound by saying it is not there. In order to make it through trauma and suffering, we must first realize and ‘face’ the fact that we have a problem. Only then, can we begin to find a solution and/or ‘healing’.
Every woman who has been hysterectomized has a problem; a huge problem. However, it's very common for that woman and those around her to not recognize that there is a serious problem because they have been told by a ‘doctor’ that all is well. Sadly, many women suffer the unbearable grief of hysterectomy alone. There is a spiritual impact of hysterectomy in addition to the physical and mental consequences. Grief is a natural emotion we feel when we experience a loss and make no mistake; having your womb removed is a loss without measure. It is a loss that God did not intend for any woman. Yet, a woman must grieve in order to heal if she has been violated by hysterectomy. Grief is a natural God-given process we must go through.
Those who don’t understand or realize what’s happening to the woman who has been hysterectomized will not know there is a real problem that requires a real solution. Unfortunately for millions of women living without their organs, there really is no solution via a pill or patch, etc. to help them heal in the physical realm. The only hope for true healing is through the spirit realm; through God. Hysterectomy is not reversible and the damage done to a woman is permanent. There is no way to restore that woman to her ‘former self’ or ‘former health’ in the medical realm. The only real ‘healing’ can and must come from God; the one who made woman to begin with.
Isaiah 53:4 says that Christ bore our griefs and carried our sorrows. The pain and suffering brought on by hysterectomy simply can’t be carried by a woman. It is too much to bear for any woman. I know this because I have suffered a lifetime of traumatic events and circumstances and I have always found a way to ‘fix’ my situation. I could 'fix' any problem or trauma. If you've read my blog, then you understand what I’m talking about here. Hysterectomy was the one trauma in forty-something years I can't seem to ‘fix’. It was not until I saw the spiritual aspect and/or damage from hysterectomy that I realized where to turn for ‘healing’.
God and God alone understands what hysterectomy does to a woman. God can bring ‘healing’ to a woman who has been hysterectomized. That woman won’t ever be the ‘same’ as before the surgery. But, God can restore that woman spiritually and that is critical. Psalms 18:2 says “The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower.” Psalms 18:6 says “In my distress, I called upon the Lord, and cried unto my God: he heard my voice out of his temple, and my cry came before him, even into his ears.” Even into his ears….
Verse 17 of the same chapter goes on to say that God delivers us from our enemy. Believe me when I tell you that any doctor who takes your womb without medical necessity (which is usually the case) is your enemy. Make no mistake about that. 1 Corinthians 3:16 says “Know ye not that ye are the temple of God, and that the Spirit of God dwelleth in you?” The very next scripture (verse 17) says “If any man (like your gynecologist who took your organs for example) defile the temple of God, him shall God destroy; for the temple of God is holy, which temple ye are.”
I have a ‘healthy’ fear of God and have had my entire life. I would never want to incur God’s wrath. The Bible is very clear on the issue of how he sees us. He sees us as his temple; ‘the temple of God’. He sees us as holy before him. The Bible is equally clear regarding the issue of what will happen to any man who defiles God’s temple. The scripture says plainly “him shall God destroy.” Any doctor, nurse, or medical person or has taken part in destroying God’s temple via hysterectomy will pay for it in ways they can’t begin to comprehend or imagine. "God is not a man that he should lie nor a son of man that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill?" (Numbers 23:19) It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of a LIVING God!
Satan has reeked his greatest destruction on mankind via hysterectomy. Yet, this is not the worst part. The worst part is that he has managed to destroy God’s temple and reek this destruction without God’s temple knowing and realizing it. I have asked God to show me why I had to lose my healthy organs when I did not need surgery or agree to it. Remember that I refused to sign the surgical consent. Yet, I was knocked out against my will and my organs taken regardless.
In my mind, I believed I had suffered enough loss in so many ways my whole life… I had learned to live without my own children. I just couldn't understand why something so horrific and truly damaging beyond measure had to happen to me. I held it together for forty something years and took very good care of myself only to have a doctor ultimately ‘ruin’ me in every sense of the word.
My former doctor, Bradley Busacco, had a smirk on his face the day my attorney took his deposition that I will never forget. I will also never forget his answer when my attorney asked him how he came to take my organs when I had not given consent. He lied. He said that we had a prior agreement that my mother would decide and consent for me on the day of my surgery. That was a complete and utter lie and makes no sense of course. No such conversation ever took place. I am reminded here of who is the father of all lies according to scripture.
I was raped at age eleven. My youngest children were taken by their father via a very public custody battle in Texas in 1998 and my children remain in Texas to this day. I was in a bank robbery with a man who had a gun and bomb when I worked in D.C. I'm no stranger to trauma...
These are but a few of the traumas I have suffered over my lifetime. I have dealt with real terror and trauma in my life but not any of that begins to compare to the terror and trauma brought on by the taking of my womb and other female organs. I have forgiven those who have terrorized me and traumatized me in the past but I could not find a way to forgive Dr. Busacco for what he did to me.
I filed a lawsuit against him which is still pending but, even if the case were to go to trial and I were to ‘win’, I have still lost everything. Something precious and without measure was taken from me; something I can never get back. No amount of money could ever make up for what I’ve lost. Remember that God allowed Satan to take Job’s health last. Not even Job lost everything at once as does a hysterectomized woman.
So, I asked God about that. What can a woman who has lost ‘herself’ via hysterectomy do? I have never dealt with anything even remotely as traumatic as hysterectomy and to think it was done against my will and without my consent and for no reason was more than I could bear. What does a woman do when she's so profoundly harmed on purpose by someone she trusted to 'first do no harm'? I just could not get a grasp on how to accept what has been done to me and I’m somebody who has accepted a lot of injustice in my life and moved on.
God gave me an answer and it is the answer I am sharing with you here God will take it up with my former doctor and your doctor in ways we could never imagine. My body (my temple), your body (your temple) has been defiled and by doctors who were trusted to 'FIRST do no harm' to us. Doctors are respected in their communities and by their peers. Even when doctors purposely harm, they are respected. On the other hand, women are made to feel like ‘freaks’ and like they don’t matter. The devastation is just too drastic to cope with.
God and God alone has to take care of such a drastic situation. There is nothing we can do to ‘right’ this horrific wrong and injustice. I know I have a limited amount of energy; especially since my surgery. I make a choice every day I wake up to spend what energy I have left finding ways to help woman learn the ‘truth’ about hysterectomy; the truth their doctors won't tell them. Never in a million years did I think that the ‘truth’ I would be helping women to see would involve their spiritual ‘self’ though. That is the only area where there can be 'true restoration'. That seems to be where God is personally leading me to focus my efforts.
I will continue to do all I know to do to help woman who've been violated and defiled by hysterectomy to learn how to heal spiritually and I will continue to speak out against hysterectomy as long as I live. I know this is my calling.
It is my deepest hope and prayer that my destruction and loss will bring about healing in other women who suffer through the permanent and life-long consequences of hysterectomy and it is also my deepest hope and prayer that millions of women will be saved from this destructive and devastating surgery. If I can help save other women from my same fate, then I can accept what has been done to me and trust God to make things right in ways that only he can.
For the rest of my life, I will continue to work toward educating women (and men) about hysterectomy, the consequences of hysterectomy and the alternatives to hysterectomy. I will continue to work toward passing legislation that will ensure doctors tell women the 'truth' about hysterectomy so there can be real informed consent. I will continue to expose the hysterectomy HOAX.
Job was ‘hit’ in all three major areas in his life: family, finance and physical health. He was hit in his mind, body and spirit. If a person is hit hard in even one of these areas, it’s difficult to keep it together. It’s extremely hard if not impossible to heal and get beyond grief and suffering when there is not one part of a person left ‘intact’. When hit in all areas and at once, it is not possible to keep it together; at least not without divine intervention and help.
When a woman is hysterectomized and castrated, she suffers losses in all areas of her person instantly and the grief she consequently suffers is in ways that are beyond measure. The worst part is that she usually does not even realize what is happening. When we know what is happening to us, we know we have a problem and can seek out help. Most women who have had these horrific surgeries are told there are few (if any) negative consequences from the surgery.
Too often, women are made to feel that there is something wrong with them if they ‘suffer’ or ‘struggle’ after these surgeries. Christ said that we can’t heal a wound by saying it is not there. In order to make it through trauma and suffering, we must first realize and ‘face’ the fact that we have a problem. Only then, can we begin to find a solution and/or ‘healing’.
Every woman who has been hysterectomized has a problem; a huge problem. However, it's very common for that woman and those around her to not recognize that there is a serious problem because they have been told by a ‘doctor’ that all is well. Sadly, many women suffer the unbearable grief of hysterectomy alone. There is a spiritual impact of hysterectomy in addition to the physical and mental consequences. Grief is a natural emotion we feel when we experience a loss and make no mistake; having your womb removed is a loss without measure. It is a loss that God did not intend for any woman. Yet, a woman must grieve in order to heal if she has been violated by hysterectomy. Grief is a natural God-given process we must go through.
Those who don’t understand or realize what’s happening to the woman who has been hysterectomized will not know there is a real problem that requires a real solution. Unfortunately for millions of women living without their organs, there really is no solution via a pill or patch, etc. to help them heal in the physical realm. The only hope for true healing is through the spirit realm; through God. Hysterectomy is not reversible and the damage done to a woman is permanent. There is no way to restore that woman to her ‘former self’ or ‘former health’ in the medical realm. The only real ‘healing’ can and must come from God; the one who made woman to begin with.
Isaiah 53:4 says that Christ bore our griefs and carried our sorrows. The pain and suffering brought on by hysterectomy simply can’t be carried by a woman. It is too much to bear for any woman. I know this because I have suffered a lifetime of traumatic events and circumstances and I have always found a way to ‘fix’ my situation. I could 'fix' any problem or trauma. If you've read my blog, then you understand what I’m talking about here. Hysterectomy was the one trauma in forty-something years I can't seem to ‘fix’. It was not until I saw the spiritual aspect and/or damage from hysterectomy that I realized where to turn for ‘healing’.
God and God alone understands what hysterectomy does to a woman. God can bring ‘healing’ to a woman who has been hysterectomized. That woman won’t ever be the ‘same’ as before the surgery. But, God can restore that woman spiritually and that is critical. Psalms 18:2 says “The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower.” Psalms 18:6 says “In my distress, I called upon the Lord, and cried unto my God: he heard my voice out of his temple, and my cry came before him, even into his ears.” Even into his ears….
Verse 17 of the same chapter goes on to say that God delivers us from our enemy. Believe me when I tell you that any doctor who takes your womb without medical necessity (which is usually the case) is your enemy. Make no mistake about that. 1 Corinthians 3:16 says “Know ye not that ye are the temple of God, and that the Spirit of God dwelleth in you?” The very next scripture (verse 17) says “If any man (like your gynecologist who took your organs for example) defile the temple of God, him shall God destroy; for the temple of God is holy, which temple ye are.”
I have a ‘healthy’ fear of God and have had my entire life. I would never want to incur God’s wrath. The Bible is very clear on the issue of how he sees us. He sees us as his temple; ‘the temple of God’. He sees us as holy before him. The Bible is equally clear regarding the issue of what will happen to any man who defiles God’s temple. The scripture says plainly “him shall God destroy.” Any doctor, nurse, or medical person or has taken part in destroying God’s temple via hysterectomy will pay for it in ways they can’t begin to comprehend or imagine. "God is not a man that he should lie nor a son of man that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill?" (Numbers 23:19) It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of a LIVING God!
Satan has reeked his greatest destruction on mankind via hysterectomy. Yet, this is not the worst part. The worst part is that he has managed to destroy God’s temple and reek this destruction without God’s temple knowing and realizing it. I have asked God to show me why I had to lose my healthy organs when I did not need surgery or agree to it. Remember that I refused to sign the surgical consent. Yet, I was knocked out against my will and my organs taken regardless.
In my mind, I believed I had suffered enough loss in so many ways my whole life… I had learned to live without my own children. I just couldn't understand why something so horrific and truly damaging beyond measure had to happen to me. I held it together for forty something years and took very good care of myself only to have a doctor ultimately ‘ruin’ me in every sense of the word.
My former doctor, Bradley Busacco, had a smirk on his face the day my attorney took his deposition that I will never forget. I will also never forget his answer when my attorney asked him how he came to take my organs when I had not given consent. He lied. He said that we had a prior agreement that my mother would decide and consent for me on the day of my surgery. That was a complete and utter lie and makes no sense of course. No such conversation ever took place. I am reminded here of who is the father of all lies according to scripture.
I was raped at age eleven. My youngest children were taken by their father via a very public custody battle in Texas in 1998 and my children remain in Texas to this day. I was in a bank robbery with a man who had a gun and bomb when I worked in D.C. I'm no stranger to trauma...
These are but a few of the traumas I have suffered over my lifetime. I have dealt with real terror and trauma in my life but not any of that begins to compare to the terror and trauma brought on by the taking of my womb and other female organs. I have forgiven those who have terrorized me and traumatized me in the past but I could not find a way to forgive Dr. Busacco for what he did to me.
I filed a lawsuit against him which is still pending but, even if the case were to go to trial and I were to ‘win’, I have still lost everything. Something precious and without measure was taken from me; something I can never get back. No amount of money could ever make up for what I’ve lost. Remember that God allowed Satan to take Job’s health last. Not even Job lost everything at once as does a hysterectomized woman.
So, I asked God about that. What can a woman who has lost ‘herself’ via hysterectomy do? I have never dealt with anything even remotely as traumatic as hysterectomy and to think it was done against my will and without my consent and for no reason was more than I could bear. What does a woman do when she's so profoundly harmed on purpose by someone she trusted to 'first do no harm'? I just could not get a grasp on how to accept what has been done to me and I’m somebody who has accepted a lot of injustice in my life and moved on.
God gave me an answer and it is the answer I am sharing with you here God will take it up with my former doctor and your doctor in ways we could never imagine. My body (my temple), your body (your temple) has been defiled and by doctors who were trusted to 'FIRST do no harm' to us. Doctors are respected in their communities and by their peers. Even when doctors purposely harm, they are respected. On the other hand, women are made to feel like ‘freaks’ and like they don’t matter. The devastation is just too drastic to cope with.
God and God alone has to take care of such a drastic situation. There is nothing we can do to ‘right’ this horrific wrong and injustice. I know I have a limited amount of energy; especially since my surgery. I make a choice every day I wake up to spend what energy I have left finding ways to help woman learn the ‘truth’ about hysterectomy; the truth their doctors won't tell them. Never in a million years did I think that the ‘truth’ I would be helping women to see would involve their spiritual ‘self’ though. That is the only area where there can be 'true restoration'. That seems to be where God is personally leading me to focus my efforts.
I will continue to do all I know to do to help woman who've been violated and defiled by hysterectomy to learn how to heal spiritually and I will continue to speak out against hysterectomy as long as I live. I know this is my calling.
It is my deepest hope and prayer that my destruction and loss will bring about healing in other women who suffer through the permanent and life-long consequences of hysterectomy and it is also my deepest hope and prayer that millions of women will be saved from this destructive and devastating surgery. If I can help save other women from my same fate, then I can accept what has been done to me and trust God to make things right in ways that only he can.
For the rest of my life, I will continue to work toward educating women (and men) about hysterectomy, the consequences of hysterectomy and the alternatives to hysterectomy. I will continue to work toward passing legislation that will ensure doctors tell women the 'truth' about hysterectomy so there can be real informed consent. I will continue to expose the hysterectomy HOAX.
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